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Applying for the perfect job for me!

Yesterday I got my resume together and sent it to a publishing house. They have an opening for a content editor as well as a proofreader.  I would love to get either job but would like to do proofreading. I got an email back from them and it said this:

Thank you for your interest in working with Lyrical Press. Due to the volume of responses we’ve received regarding the positions of copy editor and proofreader, we are reviewing your application and will reply as quickly as we can with additional information, as well as any additional steps for possible employment with Lyrical Press. 

I would love the job but I am sure there are people better qualified than me and I don't expect to get it but I can always hope! It would sure help out since I don't have a car and will have to walk to work if I get a job around here. That job would enable me to still take care of my sister and grandchildren so I am keeping my fingers crossed and praying really really hard!

Today is my day!

Today is a new day and it is time to stop being so negative and start to think positive. I know my eating affects my health and I know that I am the only one that can change anything about that. Today I am going to follow my healthy eating plan without fail and see how I feel tomorrow. This isn't rocket science, I know what I have to do and it is time to buckle down and do it!!!

My entire family deserves to have me be happy and healthy and most of all I deserve to be happy and healthy! It is time to wear my big girl pants and suck it up and make it happen. I am also going to write a book, I want it to be fiction but be a story of things that have happened in my life. I think putting things down on paper and reading them will be therapeutic so here I go!!!!!

I HATE FOOD!

I really do, I hate food. I hate everything about food and I hate the fact that we need food to survive. That being said it didn't stop me from eating way too much last night which resulted in having a stomach ache all night. I need to be more strict in the evening and realize that nighttime is coming and like clockwork it comes every night. It does, it comes every night and every night I am caught off guard and find myself not prepared and using my binges to get through the night. I have always hated the dark, it scares me for some reason. Even though I know it will turn back to daylight eventually, nighttime just seems so long and seems like it will never end. Today I am going to try Dr. Fuhrman's Eat To Live Diet. I have nothing to lose and it's obvious I can't keep going like this because I am sick all the time and gaining weight at an unbelievable rate. In his book he recommends a diet of veggies, fruit and legumes. 3 meals a day and no snacking and no nighttime eating either. It is early in the day so I am feeling encouraged and think that I can do this but lurking in the background is the night.......

What If

If you don't believe in yourself than no one else will either. I have come to the conclusion that I don't think I believe in myself at all! I wake up in the morning believing in myself and at lunch time I still believe in myself but it goes downhill from there. That's when I chicken out and start doubting myself and hating myself and not believing that I can be a success when it comes to my eating disorder.

It starts mid-afternoon and no matter how hard I try to fight it the thought plants a seed in my brain. It goes something like this: What if I can't do this, what if I can't sleep, what if I am going to be fat forever, what if I am being a big baby about all of this and therefore I am really afraid? What if I try to be normal, will I have a breakdown and fail? What if I am just really afraid, what if I try again tomorrow, what if tomorrow is really the day that I am going to do this and fight this stupid food addiction. What if I just pig out tonight and start all over tomorrow? What if I just give up on today altogether because tomorrow will be better for me, I just know it. What if no one else feels like this.

After all that, it's tomorrow and I fall into the same cycle of thought. I need to stop being afraid to just eat normal and not starve/binge myself. That's what it really is, fear. I will have nothing to hold on to if I don't have this. I won't even know who I am if I don't have this. What if I am not any good at being a normal person, then what? Now my heart starts to pound and the panic begins and grows because once the panic sets in your mind takes over and you have no more control. Fear takes over and you end up not changing at all but being in the same cycle every single day of your life. What if..........................................

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Binge Monster

Last night the binge monster came and entered my body and made me do things I did not want to do. I hate that monster! It has so much control over me and can take over whenever it wants. I am too weak to fend him off  so I need to fight harder. I have been doing great on my juicing during the day and then when night time falls the monster comes out from under my bed and takes over. I really felt good about yesterday too, I thought for sure I had built a wall of protection around me so that I would be safe.

So today is a brand new day, I can't get yesterday back but I can make today a day that I won't regret and a day safe from that monster. I am really getting tired of green juices so I am taking a break and doing carrot juice recipes. I know green is good but if you drink it so much that it no longer appeals to you than you will give up out of boredom.

Here is the site that I love for carrot juice recipes  Carrot Juice Recipes

Fear

Last night I was laying in bed and I was tired and not hungry at all and I realized what is keeping me from success, FEAR! As I was dozing off I began thinking  "what if I can't sleep if I don't binge", I sure don't want that. I was so afraid of what would happen if I didn't binge that I got up and ate just to get rid of the fear. I have no idea what I am afraid of, success? That could very well be the reason even though I really want to be successful I seem to continue to sabotage myself. Why is it that I am not afraid of purging which destroys your body in every way imaginable but I am afraid to go without being able to binge. I have been put in the hospital several times for abusing myself and I am not even afraid of going to the hospital. I used to purge until I was throwing up blood, it would be running down my arm as I stuck my fingers down my throat and think nothing of it. I would be so out of whack that I had to wear adult diapers because I could no longer control my bowels. That didn't bother me either, the way I saw it was that if the poop was running out of me that would be more weight I would be losing. Why am I so afraid of changing all of that and just be healthy? My Aunt Amy said that is insanity that I keep trying every day and end up doing the same thing and expect different results. I am so trapped in all of this that it runs my life. Today is a new day and I will juice all day and tonight I will try my hardest not to binge tonight. If I don't sleep I can always read and if I am tired tomorrow from not sleeping I can nap so why am I still afraid?

Rain rain go away!

Today has been a very strange day for some reason. One of the reasons is that it is raining so I can't get out to ride my bike and I feel very trapped. I made my juice for today and tomorrow so I won't be caught without juice. I am not hungry today which is good, now all I need to do is start coffee enemas. They seem to make me feel great for awhile and then dehydrated so I really need to drink a lot of water. I have had this strange feeling all day that something is going to go wrong, something bad. I don't know what that is but I hate when I get this feeling and it sticks with me.

I really hate how I can't eat like a normal person. There is something wrong with me and I can't control what I am doing. Having a normal eating habit is impossible. I have tried it many times. I am a pig, that's all there is to it. I am like a crack head when it comes to food. I will do anything for my next hit, even taking food from my kids and that is just plain wrong. I can't describe it but something takes over and I have no shame for what I do. I would rather just go ahead and make myself puke so I can be thin but years of doing that has already taken a toll on my body.

I took a walk today and it wasn't even that far but I felt it was hard to drag my fat body around. I really need to start walking more and try to run. I have been depending on my bike for exercise and that is fun but I know I need more. I need to get as much exercise in before the weather turns cold and I am trapped in the house. I sure wish it would stay summer all year round!

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Day 2

My last day one didn't work out so well and I had to start over again. Day 1 was yesterday and it was a success so here I am at day 2!! I have really fuzzy teeth and feel like I am in a fog today but I am sure it will pass. I am also low on energy even though I slept well last night and I know from prior fasts that I need to increase my juice and water to make myself feel better.

I read an excerpt last night of a book coming out soon on adults that had a childhood of domestic violence. I honestly thought that the book was talking about me and it also brought back a lot of memories. It's a miracle that I survived to be where I am today. My husband is very supportive but he does not understand the things that go through my mind and things I cannot control like binge eating. He thinks if you are full then why would you not just stop eating? I tried to tell him that it is not about being full because I will binge until I am so sick to my stomach I can't sleep. When I was younger I would purge by making myself puke so that I wouldn't gain weight from my binges but I promised my husband I would stop doing that. He gave me an ultimatum, either stop making myself puke or he would leave. I love my husband very much and don't want to lose him so I am keeping my promise. Unfortunately that ends up with me being fat, horribly embarrassingly fat! I don't even feel sexy at all anymore and have really let myself go and now it is time to change that!

My granddaughters live with me and they are ages 2 and 4. When I look at them and they talk to me I melt with love. After reading the beginning of that book last night I am more in love with them than ever if that is even possible. I never ever want them to live in a world like I lived in and I want them to grow up knowing they are loved and happy. No one ever told me they loved me growing up so I probably go overboard with the "I love you's" but I want them to grow up normal and not all crazy in the head like I am.

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Day 1 juice fasting

So it is August 1st and today is day 1 of a new juice fast for me. I am very excited about losing weight and gaining health but right now I am just plain hungry! The last time I did a 60 day fast I did not exercise at all and still lost substantial weight (of which I gained back all but 10 pounds) but this time I am going to push myself to exercise whenever possible.

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Juicing group blues

I feel really bad about having to remove a member of my juicing group but it had to be done. He has been making me uncomfortable for some time now and today he was insulting which made everyone feel uncomfortable. I have never deleted anyone before but I don't think that talking to him would have helped at all. I love everyone in my group and everyone is so supportive and positive that having him stay would have been a deterrence to the group.

I am hungry and I want to eat but I know I shouldn't and it is hard but I need to stay strong. I need to remember why I am doing this and keep reminding myself. Being a raging bulimic for so many years has been hard on my body. I seem to have no control when it comes to food at all, for example: when I take just one bite of food I cannot stop EVER! I keep eating and eating until I am so full and in so much pain and then will still keep going. Now that I have agreed to stop making myself puke to purge it is just doing nothing but making me fat and unhealthy. I don't know why I can't just be like other people and not have this obsession with food. It was so much easier to just puke and not worry about what I ate than it is trying to control myself. I can also go very long periods of time without eating which makes the juicing the perfect match for me and now I just need to stay strong and try to control myself and think of the health that I will gain because in the end I would rather be healthy than anything else.

Hump day dehydration

So today is the good old hump day, I sure feel humpy and grumpy and weak and tired. Yesterday I made a bad choice and decided to go golfing in the middle of the day with the heat index of 105+ and the heat took it's toll on my body.

I made sure to drink a lot of water and had my juice as usual but I was so sick from the heat that I did end up having something to eat in an attempt to make myself feel better. Today I will drink a lot of extra water and juice because now I realize I shouldn't have eaten anything. It did not make me feel better, in fact it made me feel worse!

So on to 100% juice and giving my body rest today so that it can heal. It will take a lot of juice to heal this body that's for sure! I really need to lose weight so bad that I am embarrassed being out on the golf course or anywhere for all that matters. I am always the fattest one out there and even though I am in good shape and exercise a lot the fact is that I am fat.

Yesterday my Aunt Kathy had another stroke and she is not expected to live. Strokes run in my family so my stroke risk is high. My sister is 3 years younger than me and has already had 2 strokes and is wheelchair bound and cannot speak well. It really shocked me when my sister had her 2nd stroke and I didn't think she was going to make it but luckily she did. Right away I started juicing and taking care of my body because I was afraid that I would have a stroke if I didn't. Somewhere along the line I forgot and became lax and gained back almost all the weight that I did lose. I really need to do this fast to clean out my body and my arteries and help prevent having a stroke.

So on with a day full of juice!!!!!

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Struggling with weight after 50

So most of you already know that the older you get the harder it is to stay healthy and lose weight. I have been on a weight loss yoyo for some time now and it sure isn't getting any easier!

After seeing the movie Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead I was inspired to give juicing a try. I love juicing and have a lot of support and have made great friends in the process. So far I have done 2/30 day juice fasts and 1/60 day juice fast. The feeling you get from doing this type of fast is amazing!

Weight loss and the numerous benefits of health are what made me decide to juice fast. I have lowered my cholesterol by 100 points and my blood pressure is now perfect! I still have a way to go to meet my goal but I am determined to get there!

Since my last juice fast I have gained 20 pounds back so it is time to buckle down. I was fine until my wheelchair bound sister moved in the house behind me and brought me homemade sea salt caramels that were out of this world! I knew better than to eat one and didn't want to eat one but she begged me to try one so I did and let me tell you, it was the BEST caramel I have ever had. After that I was making them dinners and trying to adjust to them being here and went a little overboard with eating junk and so here I am, trying once again to regain my health by juice feasting!!

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