Applying for the perfect job for me!

Yesterday I got my resume together and sent it to a publishing house. They have an opening for a content editor as well as a proofreader.  I would love to get either job but would like to do proofreading. I got an email back from them and it said this:

Thank you for your interest in working with Lyrical Press. Due to the volume of responses we’ve received regarding the positions of copy editor and proofreader, we are reviewing your application and will reply as quickly as we can with additional information, as well as any additional steps for possible employment with Lyrical Press. 

I would love the job but I am sure there are people better qualified than me and I don't expect to get it but I can always hope! It would sure help out since I don't have a car and will have to walk to work if I get a job around here. That job would enable me to still take care of my sister and grandchildren so I am keeping my fingers crossed and praying really really hard!

Today is my day!

Today is a new day and it is time to stop being so negative and start to think positive. I know my eating affects my health and I know that I am the only one that can change anything about that. Today I am going to follow my healthy eating plan without fail and see how I feel tomorrow. This isn't rocket science, I know what I have to do and it is time to buckle down and do it!!!

My entire family deserves to have me be happy and healthy and most of all I deserve to be happy and healthy! It is time to wear my big girl pants and suck it up and make it happen. I am also going to write a book, I want it to be fiction but be a story of things that have happened in my life. I think putting things down on paper and reading them will be therapeutic so here I go!!!!!

I HATE FOOD!

I really do, I hate food. I hate everything about food and I hate the fact that we need food to survive. That being said it didn't stop me from eating way too much last night which resulted in having a stomach ache all night. I need to be more strict in the evening and realize that nighttime is coming and like clockwork it comes every night. It does, it comes every night and every night I am caught off guard and find myself not prepared and using my binges to get through the night. I have always hated the dark, it scares me for some reason. Even though I know it will turn back to daylight eventually, nighttime just seems so long and seems like it will never end. Today I am going to try Dr. Fuhrman's Eat To Live Diet. I have nothing to lose and it's obvious I can't keep going like this because I am sick all the time and gaining weight at an unbelievable rate. In his book he recommends a diet of veggies, fruit and legumes. 3 meals a day and no snacking and no nighttime eating either. It is early in the day so I am feeling encouraged and think that I can do this but lurking in the background is the night.......