Juicing group blues

I feel really bad about having to remove a member of my juicing group but it had to be done. He has been making me uncomfortable for some time now and today he was insulting which made everyone feel uncomfortable. I have never deleted anyone before but I don't think that talking to him would have helped at all. I love everyone in my group and everyone is so supportive and positive that having him stay would have been a deterrence to the group.

I am hungry and I want to eat but I know I shouldn't and it is hard but I need to stay strong. I need to remember why I am doing this and keep reminding myself. Being a raging bulimic for so many years has been hard on my body. I seem to have no control when it comes to food at all, for example: when I take just one bite of food I cannot stop EVER! I keep eating and eating until I am so full and in so much pain and then will still keep going. Now that I have agreed to stop making myself puke to purge it is just doing nothing but making me fat and unhealthy. I don't know why I can't just be like other people and not have this obsession with food. It was so much easier to just puke and not worry about what I ate than it is trying to control myself. I can also go very long periods of time without eating which makes the juicing the perfect match for me and now I just need to stay strong and try to control myself and think of the health that I will gain because in the end I would rather be healthy than anything else.